Any of Ya'll Read Tea Leaves?

with a twist of fate
and an outward confidence
we're meeting people

Juan in a Million just left the house. We spent the evening playing XBOX and watching Underworld. He's a really cute Puerto Rican from the Bronx -- Castle Hill area -- and now lives in Coral Springs. Bendito has been here for two months and it's going pretty good for him. He goes to school, has a nice job in product marketing and enjoys video games. Overall he's quality material. Last week's Chulo would have said "He's cute... but he's outta reach." Today's Chulo is saying, "Damn Chulo, why have you waited so long to meet people?"

That's a good question. Why have I waited so long to meet people? Maybe it's the lack of confidence that I have from time to time... (Ask Azteca... He saw it in the club a few days ago...) or it could have been my utter lack of motivation to get out of the house... Regardless of the true reason, I think that this might be good for me. Rather than fighting the desire for friendship, find companions in the area -- even if they might live like 45 minutes away. In reality, what is 45 minutes? All I have that's close to me is Haitians and scary old Crackers. Well worth the drive...

What do I want to ultimately achieve from these people that I meet? I'm really not sure -- friendship... maybe more? You all remember our relationship with Principio. I'm really not sure if I'm ready for another committed thing, but something would be nice. I spend the day alone in my house or working at the block so I really do need something more in my life. I've become not really desperate, but more willing to seek alternative methods to meeting people. Could you imagine me taking out an ad in the newspaper?

It would probably look like this...

CHULO SEEKS CHULO
single, attractive chulo
seeks other single, attractive
chulo for long passionate
nights, romantic moments,
sharing and cuddling. plz
be under 30 but mentally
stable. hispanic a preference
but ya'll italians and light
skinned negroes welcome.
i'm 23, 5'9ish, 150#. i got
my financials in order and
have a college degree. no
bottoms or crack whores.

I wonder if I'd find anyone who wasn't like the rest of these homos. Is it really too much to ask for? Someone who you can't tell is homo from the get, local, gets down all kinds of ways and isn't a nut case? You meet so many people in your lifetime, yet there's like a minute percentage who turn out to be real and worth while. I just don't understand why it's so hard to find a genuine person who can love chulo for chulo and not be states away.

Shit, even Miami is a state away. I have to drive the length of Rhode Island to get there!