yet he remembered today
and the phone just rang
With the passing of a quarter of a century, we are reminded that with old age simple activities can become harder and harder to do. In this case, it's answering the phone. Principio turned twenty five today. I called almost as many times from 8:00 am to 5:00 pm with varying levels of success. Early in the day I got rings then the voice mail, around 1:00 it switched and went straight to voice mail. I didn't leave a message because that's just tacky -- happy birthday wishes on a recording? Not me.
Maybe this is part of the healing process for him -- no phone calls on days that should be reserved for people who don't have some kind of past romantic involvement. I'm not really sure. But if someone called me more than ten times and didn't leave a message, I'd be sure to call the motherfucker back to see what it was they wanted. That's just me, some people can control their curiosity.
So here I'm left thinking, "Is it possible to have a friendship after you've dated someone?". Initially I would say yes, why not. Surely two mature individuals can come to terms with their feelings and continue on with a friendship. Judging from his behaviour however, it would appear to be quite the opposite.
Maybe it has something to do with what he told me when I returned to Florida from my last trip to NY, "I lied... I could have taken you to the airport, I got out of work early. I didn't want to see you again tho because my feelings are all over the place and I can't deal."
As Hercules would say, that sounds like a personal issue. I don't mean to be insensitive, but ignoring things won't make them go away and it just makes me feel worse. It's not like the insensitive comments that were directed to me that precipitated the breakup didn't hurt, so if anyone should be avoiding the other person it should be me.
He always told me it was other people, like his previous men, that would be taken out of his life after the relationship was over. They would leave him all alone and it would hurt, but in the end it made him a better person. I always told him I wasn't going anywhere. Now I understand tho; it's not that they get taken out of his life and never call again, rather the relationship ends and he can't cope with the emotions that are left over, so he choses to ignore them until they stop calling all together.
Shadows of those who came before remain in the image; their voices and actions loud and clear in his thoughts...
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Actually after 10 calls, I would have already leave a birthday wish message. Done it be4. Nothing tacky or cheap about it. A simple sentence: "Oh well I was calling you to wish u a happy birthday, but you're not answering. I wish you the best and may that day be the best" CLICK
I'm just a little concerned that you're taking yourself out of the pics and not the other way around. Honestly, Chulo - Juan is being the Ex. And sometimes Exs are assholes and him being a knucklehead is part of it. No way am I making excuses for him, but he should be left alone. You tried to call he didn't answer. I am sure he knew what you were calling for so him not answering even that makes him an even bigger prick.
I think Juan is a dick for not picking up the phone. Clearly you did nothing wrong to him; let him sulk and ignore you. Does he know who you are? You are Chulo. Fuck him; there are far more important people to waste your daytime minutes on... like me.
Well I'm glad to see that you can remember certain people's birthdays, but not the birthday of someone who once was your best friend, roommate, etc. Oh, well I guess it shouldn't have come as much of a surprise....
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